Why is it that I let other people determine how I feel??!! I'm in a total funk right now, and it sucks! It is so frustrating to me that I let other people (especially those in my family) make me mad by the things they say. I am NOT a freak because I choose to eat healthy and exercise a lot. I know it's not the popular thing to do, but I guess being popular isn't that important to me. If being popular means that I am going to eat like crap, feel like crap, be overweight and unhealthy, then no thanks. But that still doesn't mean that when people give me a hard time about it, that it doesn't make me feel like a freak of nature.
So I'm at home today with Zach and there is a big plate of chocolate cake in the kitchen that is screaming at the top of it's lungs to be eaten. I know it won't get me closer to my goal, I know it will make me feel like a big pile of dog doo, but hey, how can it be worse than I feel right now.
And that is exactly how I got as fat as I was. I am totally an emotional eater (as I've stated before) and it likes to rear it's ugly head every now and then. When I get in a funk, or mad, or stressed, food is my first medicine of choice. Does it solve my problem when I sit down with a fork and a plate of chocolaty goodness, of course not! It tastes good while it's going down, but that's about it.
Will I eat the chocolate cake today...I hope not! I'll let you know tomorrow...and hopefully I'll choose to say goodbye to funkytown too!
You should move to CA! Their are tons of people here that are healthy. It's amazing to see day in and day out. There are always people out walking, running, biking, surfing...etc. That's one reason why older people in CA generally look a lot better than older people in other parts of the country. Just think that you are doing something good for yourself (and for Zach) by excercising and eating well. Your body will thank you for it now and in the future. GO Liz! :) From Heather
ReplyDeleteThanks Heather!! It's helpful to have friends that are encouraging and supportive...and especially helpful to have a supportive husband, which I do!! I just wish Ohio with catch up with CA in the health arena!
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