I am sitting in a meeting that I am not running and have no control over when it will end (other than if I storm out in the middle of someone talking). I am frustrated with what is happening and being discussed and the only thing that is going through my head is "Oooo, greasy cheeseburger and fries!" My mind was going in a million different bad food directions, and it finally ended up on something smothered in dark chocolate. But that was just during the meeting. After the meeting finally came to it's chaotic end I walked out to my car and plotted the best route to get to some ice cream smothered in hot fudge.
How can I go from craving cheeseburgers to chocolate to ice cream in the span of about 20 minutes (with a million other things delightfully stuffed in between)? I don't quite know how I ended up this way, but food to me is like a baby seal to a great white. If I've got it in my head that I want to eat it, you better get out of the way quick or you will be part of the take down too.
The difference, however, is that I can make a choice to not eat it. I didn't know that until not too long ago. I thought that because I was an emotional wreck and I was craving food I 100% had to have it NOW! But, as I now know, that's not the case at all. The challenge is finding something non-food related to calm my nerves, or risk going back up to 189 pounds of overweight unhappiness. Right now, that happens to be music. I got in my car today after the wonderfully stressful meeting, turned on the radio, and just sat there for a little while listening.
Don't get me wrong, there are still days that I give in and go for the entire pint of coconut milk ice cream (my food allergies will have to be covered at another time). But I promise you that if I go down the path of chocolaty goodness I will take pictures and post for all to see. Because that is part of this process...being honest and sharing what life as an overweight, emotional eater is really like.
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